Yes or no?

It is weird how you figure out who your real friends are.

It just suddenly hits you that their friendship is not what you thought it was or wanted to be.

You see, i found out the truth.

It is hard when you try so hard to be friends with someone(s) and they do not give you the time of day. Hurts your feelings huh? Well, that was my problem being friends with people who just did not appreciate me for the way i deserve to be as a person. This has been happening for a while, almost too long. You would have thought that i would get the hint, but i guess that just shows how strong my determination was. These girls made me feel left out, forgotten and not wanted in their presence., There was the occasional moments where they would be so nice to me, ask to hang out, tell some secrets and just overall feel like i was finally getting to know them. I thought my hard work had paid off.... i do not think so. For, when things appeared to be better, it turns out it never went anywhere. They would go and treat me the same way as before. talk about confusing! Well, it got me thinking... is this friendship mean to be? How much is it worth for me to gain their friendship? Is it that important to me? These questions made me realize that i guess i really don't. If "friends" are going to treat you that way then they are not really "friends". Friends are people in your life that always treat you the way they are meant to be treated. They do not decided when to respect you or lean on you when they need something from you. That is not the friendships i want nor should they be friendships that you want either. I leaned what true friendship was to me and what it should feel like within my heart and what it should look like. Sometimes, we want a friendship that we may never for a reason. I had to let go of stop trying to impress to gain what i wanted and let what ever happens happen. I am better of that way.

Take the time to think about the value of your friendships and if there is a friendship that you want first ask yourself the questions i asked myself too:

Is this friendship important to me?

Why this friendship important to me?

How to i value frienship?

What does friendship look like?

How does friendship feel like?

Cause if you gain that friendship you want to make sure that it contains the elements of true friendship.

I have found true friendships in my life that i am blessed to have and much rather have then the others. The right people come into your life for the right reasons. Never take them for granted and always remember to give thanks for them. Those friendships have touched my heart and made me the better person that i am today. Those are the friendships i want. They are the friendships i need.

I thank God for that.