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I love music and i love fulfilling that passion. But, i was having these writers blocks that were hindering me from writing my music. I would sit on my bed with a piece of paper and pencil/pen with my guitar on my lap staring at the ceiling and i would ask myself; why cant i write a decent song that i can be proud of? It would frustrate me and because i was so busy doing other things i put my music to the side and i would often wish i had the time to go back to it and the lack of laziness. I know that writers block is something that everyone experiences and i guess in a lot of ways i was to hard on myself. When i would write songs i would think about other songs i have heard on the radio and if i felt that my song did not match up to that i thought it was bad. When it probably wasn't. When i was younger i never thought like that. I would just write and not be afraid to say what was on my mind or share my music. My mom recently told me that she thought my songs were really good and she wished that i had more time to practice and get back on track.

Soon after that, i was rummaging through some old papers in my room and i came across one my songs that i wrote so long ago. I began to sing it and i was so surprised. For one, i couldn't remember when i wrote it and secondly, i was surprised as to how much i liked it. What i think was holding me back was the fact that i was thinking to much about it being a hit or having other people like it. If i came from my heart and soul, i should be proud of the song because it is me. Once i start to let the inspiration flow and stop worrying about a hit, thats when i can become successful and even if i never sold a record i would still be proud because i love music and expressing myself.

i would never ever give up on my music and i think i just figured out the cause for my writers block, lets just hope that its gone for good. It would make writing easier. :)

Time Warp

I am a well rounded journalist and actress and i have a passion for blogs and articles. My mentor directed me to a website called The Acting Room that i believe to be an inspiring and helpful tool for actors of our generation such as myself. I have recently read an article written by the author Kristen Tretbar, that i find inspiring and thought provoking as are many of her articles. It was based on not losing yourself in Hollywood which i find hit home for me. Growing up my mom has always encouraged my love for acting and has heard me say as a young child 'I want to move to Hollywood' however, she would always have the inner voice tell her to warn me not to lose who i am. Just like my family, i have strong Christian values and morals and my mother wants me to hold onto those and never forget them. Though i don't believe i will, she still fears for me and i know why. How do i know for sure that the pressure of Hollywood would not get to me physically and emotionally? The thing is i don't and she knew that. Before i thought that it was easy not to lose yourself, well for me anyways. Reading this article i realized how easy it is for young actors and actresses to come to Hollywood with the aspiration to change themselves and put their past in a box and forget who they are before their move to LA. I realized how important our past is and how it defines us and makes us unique as humans and as actors. The moment in which i found very life changing was when she mentioned how going to LA with all these goals of being apart of the "party scene" and willing to work, work, work is not going to make you happy. Happiness can come from the things we love to do and holding on to our values and morals and who we really are should be our focus in life.

So the more i think about, the more i realize that i am in no rush to move to LA. Before i was, but know that i realize how important our life is before the transitions makes me want to soak up every moment where i am so that i can apply what i love to do to my LA lifestyle in the future( that was another life changing sentence for me as well) Not losing yourself is very important, as the author said "it may be cliche, but its true." :)